I thank you...

I thank you Lord...

for giving me a great year
blessing me with a wonderful family
maintaining a great health condition
giving me a chance to live abroad
surrounding me with lovely and happening friends
never failing me in my studies
always bringing me back whenever I fall out of track
saving me in a near miss cases
securing a great work environment
showering your unconditional love for me that I realize I do not need more
always placing me as the apple of your eye

But most importantly, I thank you Lord that you never fail me nor forsake me..and I realize I shall not be wise in my own eyes...2012 its gonna be your year and I shall make things right this time around...its a year of awakening...

Under the Mistletoe

Feels good 2 have a crush on an actual person
a person where u actually have a decent convo with
not someone u stalk in da walkways of uni
or thru fb
i get a ride frm him..how i wish i get 2 ride him though...hehe
i think as u grow older,ur taste changes
i do realize my sudden shift frm bad boys to nerdy cuteness
intellectual talk is hot
but if he listens 2 pitbull n redfoo in da morning in his car n later talks bout ur future prospects as an accountant or banker...wat else could u ask for!!!
2 bad his taken
call it destiny or just pure coincidence...i get 2 work with him for the whole next week too!!!

why this koleveri?

im tired like seriously super duper tired
its either tired of doin sometin, staying 2 consecutive late nites at the client's office or tired of doin notin..like 2day i get 2 go back early!! but kena stuck at pasir gudang jam..=.=
1st week was not bad, got a feel of how an auditor has so much power...
loves the feeling of interrogating the accounts department in the clients firm..
omg they tremble la...
it was so cool when the guy could not get wat i wanted n put me online with another person n said "the auditor wants 2 talk 2 u"...i was like in my head "dude, im a freaking intern la"...hehe
i can see myself here..till thirty???
just like wat my senior said
"jb is the best place- no rental, no traffic jam n family is here"..hmmm sounds like a nice package
dats wat i see but i know u have greater plans in store for me
its gonna be another 9 more weeks of client hoping, going to different factories"*hint-aluminium, toothpaste n boxes??"..its gonna be..not fun 4 sure counting da late nites n lack of sleep..but its gonna be an adventure...
All I need is strength, wisdom n grace to overcome this...
N yes cant wait to participate in the flash mob for xmas..its gonna be in 3 City's( CS, TEBRAU N KSL) N Sutera mall...its gonna be EPIC y'all!!!

Unblock me

the unexpected happened again when u least expected it
kept on wondering what were the odds when there were no clues given
searching for puzzles to connect the picture
it definitely did not cross my mind nor caught my attention
da more it buzzes, da more i fall
i hate that i love it
but its just foolish 2 think about it
should i or should i not???
i guess just be not expectant anymore

looks like its da season to "roll over the next toy"
from wardrobe to boys
u never fail 2 amuse me
from winter to spring n now a summer?
just settle for the malaysian weather
less complicated, only sun n rain

i know what im seeing
n u know it 2
i may not say a word
but it does not mean im ignoring u
sparks, chemistry, magic
call it watever u want
just be careful my little pixie
u don't want 2 break a gentleman's heart

u love 2 be swayed
when will u stay?
firm, strong n confident
i know u will some day
but don't be misled
by false hopes n dreams
in da end, its u alone
just how u came into this lonely earth

i may have surpassed u
but u still linger at da back of my mind
i never asked but do i need 2 make a scene?
its definitely a game
but its not same when hearts are involved
i may deny u by words, but my heart itches for u sometimes

forever alone
i may be destined for it
over the rainbows
under the sea
98, 99, 100
come out come out wherever u are

Surprise me...

Beyoncé - Countdown

"
My baby is a 10
We dressing to the 9
He pick me up at 8,
Make me feel so lucky 7
He kiss me in his 6
We be making love at 5
Still the one I'm going 4
I'm tryna make us 3
From that 2
He's still the 1"

Fix You

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Last Friday Night....

A picture is worth a thousand words...so I complied many pictures to create gazzilion words to sum up one of the best nights we all had 2getha...save the best for last!!!

Melaka with the Inti-mates

Last sunday was so memorable
Waking up early at 8am
Feeling so so excited
Brought my playlist to play drg da car trip
I sat in the right car with the right people
It was a mobile club like old man would say and I was da DJ
Mr awesome became a chinese tour guide
Old man became bruno mars
Mr mru became jason mraz
And I was Rebecca Brown..lol..i know...LAME
Party rocking all the way
I think dat was da best part of the whole trip
Other than indulging in good melaka food

So lets rate the food:

First up...CHICKEN RICE BALLS
Rating-3 ***


Desert: DURIAN CENDOL
Rating-5*****


Hi Tea-SATAY CELUP
Rating-2**


Dinner-NADAJE'S CREPE
Rating-1*


The Crew
Rating-1 gazillion **************************


U GUYS ROCK!!! I HEART YOU!!!

Picasa!!!

I finally downloaded Picasa...this is wat i got while playing it..collage of snapshots from phnom penh :)

 

Set fire to the rain

When you think everything still looks the same
Look again, closely
Its not the same anymore

Time flies, people do change
They say they don't
But it always does

We can snap similar moments
But those memories would never be the same
Without the same excitement like before

The gap grew all of us apart
Regretting the decision???
The more I ponder, the more I will

Is there anything I can do?
Fake the smile but rot inside

Adele makes me emo
Writing this while listening to her album makes me more emo
:(

Welcome home

"To all foreigners visiting Malaysia, welcome to Malaysia and to all Malaysians returning back, WELCOME HOME..." My heart just felt so teary when I heard these words from the stewardess..looking at all da kelapa sawit frm the sky, i knew i was back home :) But the best part was the surprise appearance of my parents in LCCT when i was suppose to take a flight back to jb after 5 hours..it just made my day..i cant believe my holiday at home flew by so fast that im actually back in sunway and 2mrw would be the starting of my final year..

Am i excited??? 4 sure la..when ur friends are the BOMB, everything we gonna do would be a BLAST, so the final year is gonna be an EXPLOSIVE one..lol..WTH la am i crapping...I was so excited to meet the drama queen, the monkey and the old man yesterday!!! cant wait to see the sexy mummy and mr mru..lol..yet, i still feel my holiday at home was too short..:( i foresee a sem of running back n forth btwn sunway 2 jb

Btw, phnom penh was exotic, it was something like bali but i prefer this place cz the people here were so down to the earth and they really give good massages..hehe..i really had a wonderful time with the 3 people i love the most...2 bad the pest could not make it..we shall aim for london next yr...dear airasia, give me cheap flights!!!

Just realized that when things do not turn out your way, it means there is always something better in store in an unexpected twist cz if ur plan did happen, u may be giving in to the 2nd best course of action...

t.g.e.o

The title says it all, im done with exams. Wat a relieve! Having a 12 days gap was to long, u lose ur momentum at the end...i tink i lost it b4 doin my last paper..lol..oh well, i cant change anytin now, and im just hoping for the best..i hope i get the results i need 2 prove to my dad i was not having too much fun down under..lol..Need some evidence that i actually studied drg dis 5 mths or not i cant come back home..lol..i cant imagine going back home and actually listening to one lecture of bla bla bla.

Yet drg the 12days, I met up with my primary school friends which I havent met them for like 12 donkey years and my high school mate back in kulim. Who knew ur primary and high school mate frm 2 different schools would actually being doing the same course in Brisbane? Damn, its such a small world...I was actually very excited seeing Suren, Hui Ying, Carmen and Rin (she looks gorgeous) in a different country. I would never thought we would have a reunion in Melbourne lol..1st thing Suren told .."when was thr last time we met? im like after spm results??? or wait was it when sch ended??..and he said..damn dats ancient!!"...lol..meeting with 3 convent girls brought sweet memories of being in an all girls school..ahh, a whole new feeling..talking about what we did..we still remembered bout the fish ball teacher, da places we sat in class and da gal we all hated ..lol..fyi, one of them punched her in the stomach and another one threw chicken wings at her and they had a fight and began rolling on the floor, pulling each other's hair in the class party (well dats my version)..freaking awesome stuff!!!

I managed to get a group pic with them..I should go back home and compare it with my my old school photos..i tink i still have them..btw, we visited The Shrine of Rememberance..when i was dere, i was like wth, I havent been to my own country's tugu negara..lol



HY, C, RP



As you can see, Im still da tallest...hehe

So what's in store for the remaining days??? Its Sydney and Gold Coast!!!! And shopping, im gonna splurge every cent i have left!!! But then, in...20 days, i will be back where I belong and Im gonna eat like dere's no tomorrow!!!

Everybody put your hands in the air

Instead of going through my tutorials, I decided to create an after exam party playlist...and I am already on party mode with 2 more papers still to go =.=

Lets get the party started with:
Party Rock Anthem-LMAO
We run the night-Havana Brown
Give me everything-Pitbull ft Neyo
On the floor-Jennifer Lopez
Till the world ends-Britney Spears
More-Usher
Yeah3x-Chris Brown
Lights On-Katy B
Tonight (Im Loving You)-Enrique Iglesias
I wanna go-Britney Spears
Who's that chick-Rihanna ft. David Guetta
Judas-Lady Gaga

25 days more...

Am i ready??? Oh yeah...bring it on...

My Cup

"got you in the palm of my hand
wanna put something hot in you
so hot that you cant stand
can't stand

gonna take you to my lips
empty out every last drop
so thirsty for what's in you baby
that i cant stop
i cant stop

in the middle of the night, left in bed all alone
don't care if you're glass, paper, styrofoam
when i need some water, baby
coffee or gin
you're the only thing, i wanna put them in

*pause*-ITs NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS

my cup, my cup
saying what's up?
to my cup
more than a friend then a silly pup
my cup
you know what it is
saying what's up
to my cup
(ahh)
saying what's up
to my cup
(ahh)
saying what's up
to my cup"



HAHAHAHA...this is so funny :)

The Hope of All Hearts

"In darkness and triumph,
my soul shall sing,
Of His mercies and kindness,
Our offering of praise
Our God never fails
Our God never fails."

Have you wanted something so much that you work your butt off and at the end it disappoints you after all the effort you put it? I know how it feels and what is worst, it brings you down like a strong evil root dragging you to the ground. It sucks you into this vacuum of self pity and uselessness and valueless and regret and finally u say..why me? Watever la just give up. I was there few days ago, jst feeling so low and down. The feeling of so close yet so far. The feeling like i cant tell this to anybody. The feeling of not going to that place. Yet, u never know what will and can happen...Everything changed today..goin to urban life just changed and renewed my whole perspective of the matter..from singing the verse above, to the sharing and offering sermon, everything was meant for me..i knew why i was down.. it's because i distant myself frm You...trying to take matters into my own hand..it will never work..after today, i am refreshed, rejuvenated..i dont care wats gonna happen, wat i know its not gonna bring me down...n yes SUPERNATURAL things can happen..i am gonna hope, and hope will lead to the unexpected and the rest will be history...lol

I learned something today. Do not download a Lady Gaga album on the day of release from the net cz in OZ land, they take illegal downloading seriously..like seriously..they send you a warning letter and if you do repeat it..YOU WILL BE FINED!!!! sounds so scary!!! LOL

Check this out:
AWEsome
AWful
AWstralia

Oh yes, i was downloading lots of music earlier on this week until i got the letter which lead to the stop...so i decided to have a music library makeover.. reorganizing it, and decided to make playlists. So far I have got:

My Pimp: Who Run the World, On the floor, Sweat, Dont Stop the Party
My Desire: Rolling in the deep, Back to Black, Heartless
My Soul: Jesus Culture, Planetshakers, Hillsongs,Israel Houghton
My Heart: Valentine, Im Lost without you, Today was a fairytale

Next i wanna have create a playlists for My Roots, My Oldies, My Elvis and MJ and My Bhangra :)

Blame it on the weather

I skip class cz it felt so good to snuggle under the comforter and sleep till noon...
I cook at home using remaining ingredients at home cz its so cold to go outside and get food...
I am hungry all the time..
I just wanna lie on my bed and watch greek the whole time...
I indulge in chocolate so much without feeling guilty...
I love to listen to Jesus culture during this time...
I dont want to study...

Sigh..in less than a month I will be sitting for my 1st exam in Caulfield...i hate this period...i need strength and discipline and self-control and wisdom...

I saw hailstones today..small tiny ones..i actually put my hand out of the window to catch them..felt like a little kid amused by it...apparently, it snowed in the mountains and its not even winter yet..dear weather, u r very freaky!!!



Do you know you can make a 3 minute chocolate cake in a mug using the microwave?

4 tablespoon of self-raising flour
4 tablespoon of sugar
3 tablespoon of cocoa powder
3 tablespoon of milk
3 tablespoon of oil
Add in some chocolate chips and a bit of vanilla essence
Mix it up till its all smooth out and put it in the microwave for 3 mins
And voila!



Shisha in melbourne??? nehhh...jaafar still feels like home :(


Its the 12th!!!! which means....in 2 more months i will be back in food heaven..Amen!!!

Feeling good

Supernatural week? Heaven Yeah!!!! LOL...my soul loved it but my body couldn't handle it that on the last day, my system broke down..temperature started to rise and came the whole package of cough and cold. But what was more supernatural was actually finishing my assignment and studying properly for my test even though I was sleeping after every 1 hour of work on saturday and sunday...it was definitely stressful to have a test and assignment due on the same day..i hope i wont get more of those anymore... well, i did my part, da rest i leave it up 2 u..You were my strength when I am weak...i realized dat when i am sick i become really homesick.i was not homesick at all when i came here but when im sick, u just wish u had good food around you...oh man, i am so craving that spicy chicken curry!!!!! 3 more months.....


I learned that you cant get medicines from the clinic. You had to get a prescription from the doc and go to the pharmacy to get it...aiya..should follow malaysian system la..everything under one roof..LOL

Btw, somebody's bday this weekend...hmmmm...was suppose to send something but tak jadi :( what shall I do den????

Its easter this weekend and I wont be attending church with the whole family for the first time and having awesome food after dat...oh well :(

I found a black worm in my clothes while i was folding them..i had no idea it was a leech or a centerpede or milepede or watever la..all i knew is that i had to kill it and get it out from my room asap..damn eeeeeeeeee

I think I should catch up in my work...after watching the latest episode of gleeeeeee....:)

"Your not mad at me, your madly in love with me"

I just had sex...

...and it felt so good!" Heard da song???? hehe

MONSU Caulfield is officially NUTS!!!! Having a SEX IT UP WEEK with naked dummies around the student lounge, free give away of "creative" condoms, and a fetish party is just pure madness. What was more eye popping was actually to witness sex Olympics! Wat do they do? Its a race to see which couple can do the mentioned sex position the fastest...like woah!! two thumbs up man!! never heard of jackhammer before nor wheelbarrow..i bet someone is an expert in this area LOL
Btw, is it true that a guys G spot is the anus???Whose one? Interesting fact but I still don't get dat. And yes, I got a tatt on the back ;)temporary la...LOL

Let's Play "Guess The Song"

"I didn't know what day it was
When you walked into the room
I said hello unnoticed
You said goodbye too soon"

"Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there's no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness, take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles, that's what you do"

"I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, wont you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?"

"I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure going to give you a try
And if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know"

Hint: Its all sang by the same singer...

Im just rambling

History repeats itself
I can never be close to you
It has not happened once but your the fifth time around
Its a pattern
That cannot be changed
Its a disorder
Borderline apparently
Competition arises, jealously stirs tension
Criticism bubbles up anger
Irrational decisions are taken
Just to prove a point
I will try to disappoint you all the time if I can
And make you less important
I will love you at certain times
But most of the time I dont
Fix me
I need a doctor
Its nothing serious
But its something I have to work it out
After all these years blaming the other person
Finally I realize
Its me
The root of the problem

XOXO

ps: where are you?

Let It Rain

Discovered Jesus Culture band this week and since then im so addicted to their songs...I hear it like every time im on my lappie..especially the song "Let It Rain"...im so soaked in his presence when I hear it..its gives out a really good vibe and I feel so loved by Him :)



"Let it rain, let it rain.
Open the floodgates of Heaven.

I feel the rains of Your Love,
I feel the winds of Your Spirit,
And now the heartbeat of Heaven,
Let us hear.

Because we want to see You;
Show us Your Glory.
And we want to know You, Lord."

p.s: i tink the lead singer is cute..too bad his married :(:(:(

Season 4

New campus, new sem, new look?




Nehhhhhhh...i still am fat..oops..phat..hehe

Lazy to cook rice, sick of instant noodles, next alterntative, ready made carbonara..not bad la..



Its nice to have a housemate around who talks alot, but not when im watching tv...especially drg the oscars..but wat da heck..she's great company

I had no idea monash marketplace doesn't only advertises on books, accommodation or gadgets but also hired drivers to send you to the airport..lol

Caufield is like sunway la...just filled with more people from the country that has a red flag :( i have a lecturer from there 2 :(:(

My father added on fb 2day =-0...no comments...

Sometimes you never know who will you meet when you never expected it...so imma gonna keep un-expecting for the unexpected?????

MelB~I likey

I like it when they greet you with "how r u going?", or "Gday mate!"
I like the hot tall angmo guys with their sexy accent.
I like it when they are absurdly friendly.
I like it that they offer their help to take a photo of a group.
I like it that i can wear a scarf, a hoodie, or a pair of boots without being looked weirdly.
I like it when u see Asians everywhere u turn.
I like it when I can spot Malaysians in Coles by the way they talk.
I like it that the Malaysians get 2getha as a huge gang over here.
I like the transport system over here.
I like it when its cold but there is a ray of sunshine 2 reduce the coldness.
I like the beautiful and clean beaches.
I like it that alcohol is a big part of their culture.
I like it that they hate england.
I like it that they speak about "how to give a good blowjob?" on radio.
I like it tat they are so laid back over here.
I like it when they value family time that shopping malls closes at 5pm.
BUT...I MISS THE FOOD :(
Can I see myself here for a permanent basis??? Maybe...will c how it goes, since I havent discover their dirty little secrets yet...

Your word, My refuge

Sometimes I think what did I do to deserve of all this?
Why do people love to take a ride on you, give you sweet promises
And then abandoned the very next day
And pretend like everything is ok
I dont get it,I dont know what they think of themselves
It hurts a lot, especially when you trusted the person so much
Its like getting divorce papers all of a sudden from your partner when you thought the relationship is going fine
And they know I would be a lost sheep without them
Looks like you cannot trust men except for God
Cz dey will forsake and abandoned you

It mind boggles me that some people cant say thank you 4 favours done onto dem
Its not that I want recognition for doing something good
But when dat person bugs you all the time and worries that I did not do a good job at doing the favour
But when its finally done, you wont get a reply frm dem
As if dey are MIA
And when you ask dem bck, dey r like... oh yeah...i forgot
FORGOT YOUR HEAD LA!!!!!!
What's the big deal of showing off your attitude when people despise you?
Learn to have gratitude in your attitude

My anger wants dem to get a taste of deir own medicine
But deep inside I know its wrong
Its hard to forgive someone who hurts u, use u , take advantage on u, or in other words treat u like shit
Seriously, is it written on my forehead "TAKE ADVANTAGE ON ME CZ I WONT BE PISSED OFF?"
Or Am I paying my time...have I done the same thing before to another person..or am i overreacting
"Why worry the speck in your friend's eye when you have a log on your own?"-Matt 7:3

But these words sprang into my heart:
You will make a way, when there seems to be no way.
And when I walk through a valley where there is shadows all around, I will not fear, You will guide me, You will keep me safe and sound.
You will never leave nor forsake me
The Battle is not Mine, But Yours...

An open book

"If someone were to read your life as a book, what would they find????"

Was it interesting?
Were you good?
Were u a b***h?
Did u achieve something?
Was it memorable?
Did you inspire others?
Were you a role model?
Were you a pain in the ass?
Were you a let down to your family and peers?

But most importantly, did you do what you were destined 2 do on this planet?

I know we are here not by chance by for a purpose. Let it be revealed. Time is ticking, it will be sooner than I think...

Tangled

What will u do if u were attracted by...

ur hot, handsome and single teacher who is only a few years older den u?







ur boss who is one of the most eligible bachelor (inherited good looks and money) but has a well-to do girlfriend?





ur neighbour's son who returned from overseas but his mum n ur mum dont get along?



ur older brother's friend who is freakishly cute but ur bro wants u 2 treat him like another bro?




ur long time family enemy's son?




OR

ur best guy friend who has a gf or is getting married soon?



AND WHAT IF.....

dey r attracted 2 u.....

WHAT WILL U DO???

IF IT IS WAS A ONE WAY ATTRACTION...it would be so much easier to cover it up and get over it cz its all up 2 ur imagination n nothing can really happen cz u noe its wrong in someway or another and the other party is not interested..unless ur bitch la n do wat ever it takes to get him..lol

however....

IF THERE IS CHEMISTRY BETWEEN BOTH PARTIES....imagine the tension, the guilt, the suspense, the regret, the secret, the pain of not being together, the suffering of keeping mum, and the job of telling da third party involved if da guy n da gal do come 2getha....sounds like a lot of drama ...

SO, SKIP THE DRAMA AND FOLLOW UR MAMA....
And fall for a normal person in normal circumstances..hahaha...

LIKE DATS EVER GOIN 2 HAPPEN!!!

It's a recap-2010

JANUARY: HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010
most boring-est month of the year where the partying stops and people go back 2 work or school except for the monashians who are still in deir summer break n rotting at home...sigh....

FEBRUARY: 20th bday + valentines + CNY
my favourite month cz its my bday!!!!! became 20 in penang...met up with high school friends..ahh..non-stop gossiping with them..lol





MARCH: BACK IN MONASH!!!!!!!!
After 3 months break, ur back 2 studying, nerding,assignmenting but the best part..lepaking!!!!!!





APRIL: CULTURAL NIGHT & KUCHING!!!






MAY: wat happen in may ah???? i cant seem 2 recall anytin except dis drg bz law lecture...




JUNE: EXAMS :( notin much 2 say bout dat....

JULY: LANGKAWI, 2ND YR 1ST SEM, MTV WORLD STAGE





AUGUST: CELEBRATED SHAHEEN, VICTORIA, IAN N POOJA'S BDAY



SEPTEMBER:MONASH BALL, ARTHUR'S DAY, UNIVERSAL STUDIOS





OCTOBER: EXAMS :(

NOVEMBER: CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!!!!!!

DECEMBER: THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR!!!! YOUTH CAMP, XMAS, FAMILY REUNION, NEW YEAR



...i got a new camera for xmas :)





HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 FOLKS!!!!!! Have a soaring year!!!!! :)