Life as we know it

When I was first started to work, I thought work place was filled with serious people, big adults and Im a small kid trying to fit in
"Im just a kid life is a nightmare song" kept replaying in my head as I walked into da doors of what seems an unknown world to me..
But being suck into it like a vacuum forced to be settled in asap and getting familiar with things around,
I just realized that..working is not dat bad..and...
The workplace is just like a school for adults...
And its so true...
U have the interns like me who are just equivalent to the newbies or small kids who just entered school...
And then there are the seniors who are exactly like the seniors in school...some are nice and there are some stuck up ones...pretty much da same in school....
If ur nice to them and can click with them, ur in the cool club n no one can touch you...and if anything happens, they would try to save you...its true, happened to me a last week...
And da best part of mixing with the cool crowd, u get to learn their dirty tricks...just like skipping classes..in da workplace, there are tricks to leave da workplace early..just like one of my senior's said" its all about playing it cool.." n i was like oh yeah, u rock la dude!!!.. n then we manage 2 sneak out!!...hehe
And you have those gossipy seniors who would voluntarily "inform you" who have been nice and who have been naughty...
So seniors play an important role...cause they are more experienced than you and they know how 2 help you when ur lost...
Then it comes to the managers...managers are exactly like the teachers in the school....most are them are fierce...same like teachers...but there are some kind ones who really know what ur going through...so just like how i kept my relationship with teachers last time, u try to please them but yet your not dat close to them...
And lastly the directors=headmaster of the school=the overseer...who checks out if everyone is doing their job...n if ur really want 2 screw someone above you, just go straight to the director...
So in a wrap, workplace is just like school...n there is no big deal in it...but what's da main difference...U EARN MONEY!!!!! So,let da dollars keep rolling in...

I thank you...

I thank you Lord...

for giving me a great year
blessing me with a wonderful family
maintaining a great health condition
giving me a chance to live abroad
surrounding me with lovely and happening friends
never failing me in my studies
always bringing me back whenever I fall out of track
saving me in a near miss cases
securing a great work environment
showering your unconditional love for me that I realize I do not need more
always placing me as the apple of your eye

But most importantly, I thank you Lord that you never fail me nor forsake me..and I realize I shall not be wise in my own eyes...2012 its gonna be your year and I shall make things right this time around...its a year of awakening...

Under the Mistletoe

Feels good 2 have a crush on an actual person
a person where u actually have a decent convo with
not someone u stalk in da walkways of uni
or thru fb
i get a ride frm him..how i wish i get 2 ride him though...hehe
i think as u grow older,ur taste changes
i do realize my sudden shift frm bad boys to nerdy cuteness
intellectual talk is hot
but if he listens 2 pitbull n redfoo in da morning in his car n later talks bout ur future prospects as an accountant or banker...wat else could u ask for!!!
2 bad his taken
call it destiny or just pure coincidence...i get 2 work with him for the whole next week too!!!

Unblock me

the unexpected happened again when u least expected it
kept on wondering what were the odds when there were no clues given
searching for puzzles to connect the picture
it definitely did not cross my mind nor caught my attention
da more it buzzes, da more i fall
i hate that i love it
but its just foolish 2 think about it
should i or should i not???
i guess just be not expectant anymore

looks like its da season to "roll over the next toy"
from wardrobe to boys
u never fail 2 amuse me
from winter to spring n now a summer?
just settle for the malaysian weather
less complicated, only sun n rain

i know what im seeing
n u know it 2
i may not say a word
but it does not mean im ignoring u
sparks, chemistry, magic
call it watever u want
just be careful my little pixie
u don't want 2 break a gentleman's heart

u love 2 be swayed
when will u stay?
firm, strong n confident
i know u will some day
but don't be misled
by false hopes n dreams
in da end, its u alone
just how u came into this lonely earth

i may have surpassed u
but u still linger at da back of my mind
i never asked but do i need 2 make a scene?
its definitely a game
but its not same when hearts are involved
i may deny u by words, but my heart itches for u sometimes

forever alone
i may be destined for it
over the rainbows
under the sea
98, 99, 100
come out come out wherever u are

Surprise me...

Set fire to the rain

When you think everything still looks the same
Look again, closely
Its not the same anymore

Time flies, people do change
They say they don't
But it always does

We can snap similar moments
But those memories would never be the same
Without the same excitement like before

The gap grew all of us apart
Regretting the decision???
The more I ponder, the more I will

Is there anything I can do?
Fake the smile but rot inside

Adele makes me emo
Writing this while listening to her album makes me more emo
:(

Welcome home

"To all foreigners visiting Malaysia, welcome to Malaysia and to all Malaysians returning back, WELCOME HOME..." My heart just felt so teary when I heard these words from the stewardess..looking at all da kelapa sawit frm the sky, i knew i was back home :) But the best part was the surprise appearance of my parents in LCCT when i was suppose to take a flight back to jb after 5 hours..it just made my day..i cant believe my holiday at home flew by so fast that im actually back in sunway and 2mrw would be the starting of my final year..

Am i excited??? 4 sure la..when ur friends are the BOMB, everything we gonna do would be a BLAST, so the final year is gonna be an EXPLOSIVE one..lol..WTH la am i crapping...I was so excited to meet the drama queen, the monkey and the old man yesterday!!! cant wait to see the sexy mummy and mr mru..lol..yet, i still feel my holiday at home was too short..:( i foresee a sem of running back n forth btwn sunway 2 jb

Btw, phnom penh was exotic, it was something like bali but i prefer this place cz the people here were so down to the earth and they really give good massages..hehe..i really had a wonderful time with the 3 people i love the most...2 bad the pest could not make it..we shall aim for london next yr...dear airasia, give me cheap flights!!!

Just realized that when things do not turn out your way, it means there is always something better in store in an unexpected twist cz if ur plan did happen, u may be giving in to the 2nd best course of action...

t.g.e.o

The title says it all, im done with exams. Wat a relieve! Having a 12 days gap was to long, u lose ur momentum at the end...i tink i lost it b4 doin my last paper..lol..oh well, i cant change anytin now, and im just hoping for the best..i hope i get the results i need 2 prove to my dad i was not having too much fun down under..lol..Need some evidence that i actually studied drg dis 5 mths or not i cant come back home..lol..i cant imagine going back home and actually listening to one lecture of bla bla bla.

Yet drg the 12days, I met up with my primary school friends which I havent met them for like 12 donkey years and my high school mate back in kulim. Who knew ur primary and high school mate frm 2 different schools would actually being doing the same course in Brisbane? Damn, its such a small world...I was actually very excited seeing Suren, Hui Ying, Carmen and Rin (she looks gorgeous) in a different country. I would never thought we would have a reunion in Melbourne lol..1st thing Suren told .."when was thr last time we met? im like after spm results??? or wait was it when sch ended??..and he said..damn dats ancient!!"...lol..meeting with 3 convent girls brought sweet memories of being in an all girls school..ahh, a whole new feeling..talking about what we did..we still remembered bout the fish ball teacher, da places we sat in class and da gal we all hated ..lol..fyi, one of them punched her in the stomach and another one threw chicken wings at her and they had a fight and began rolling on the floor, pulling each other's hair in the class party (well dats my version)..freaking awesome stuff!!!

I managed to get a group pic with them..I should go back home and compare it with my my old school photos..i tink i still have them..btw, we visited The Shrine of Rememberance..when i was dere, i was like wth, I havent been to my own country's tugu negara..lol



HY, C, RP



As you can see, Im still da tallest...hehe

So what's in store for the remaining days??? Its Sydney and Gold Coast!!!! And shopping, im gonna splurge every cent i have left!!! But then, in...20 days, i will be back where I belong and Im gonna eat like dere's no tomorrow!!!

The Hope of All Hearts

"In darkness and triumph,
my soul shall sing,
Of His mercies and kindness,
Our offering of praise
Our God never fails
Our God never fails."

Have you wanted something so much that you work your butt off and at the end it disappoints you after all the effort you put it? I know how it feels and what is worst, it brings you down like a strong evil root dragging you to the ground. It sucks you into this vacuum of self pity and uselessness and valueless and regret and finally u say..why me? Watever la just give up. I was there few days ago, jst feeling so low and down. The feeling of so close yet so far. The feeling like i cant tell this to anybody. The feeling of not going to that place. Yet, u never know what will and can happen...Everything changed today..goin to urban life just changed and renewed my whole perspective of the matter..from singing the verse above, to the sharing and offering sermon, everything was meant for me..i knew why i was down.. it's because i distant myself frm You...trying to take matters into my own hand..it will never work..after today, i am refreshed, rejuvenated..i dont care wats gonna happen, wat i know its not gonna bring me down...n yes SUPERNATURAL things can happen..i am gonna hope, and hope will lead to the unexpected and the rest will be history...lol

I learned something today. Do not download a Lady Gaga album on the day of release from the net cz in OZ land, they take illegal downloading seriously..like seriously..they send you a warning letter and if you do repeat it..YOU WILL BE FINED!!!! sounds so scary!!! LOL

Check this out:
AWEsome
AWful
AWstralia

Oh yes, i was downloading lots of music earlier on this week until i got the letter which lead to the stop...so i decided to have a music library makeover.. reorganizing it, and decided to make playlists. So far I have got:

My Pimp: Who Run the World, On the floor, Sweat, Dont Stop the Party
My Desire: Rolling in the deep, Back to Black, Heartless
My Soul: Jesus Culture, Planetshakers, Hillsongs,Israel Houghton
My Heart: Valentine, Im Lost without you, Today was a fairytale

Next i wanna have create a playlists for My Roots, My Oldies, My Elvis and MJ and My Bhangra :)

Feeling good

Supernatural week? Heaven Yeah!!!! LOL...my soul loved it but my body couldn't handle it that on the last day, my system broke down..temperature started to rise and came the whole package of cough and cold. But what was more supernatural was actually finishing my assignment and studying properly for my test even though I was sleeping after every 1 hour of work on saturday and sunday...it was definitely stressful to have a test and assignment due on the same day..i hope i wont get more of those anymore... well, i did my part, da rest i leave it up 2 u..You were my strength when I am weak...i realized dat when i am sick i become really homesick.i was not homesick at all when i came here but when im sick, u just wish u had good food around you...oh man, i am so craving that spicy chicken curry!!!!! 3 more months.....


I learned that you cant get medicines from the clinic. You had to get a prescription from the doc and go to the pharmacy to get it...aiya..should follow malaysian system la..everything under one roof..LOL

Btw, somebody's bday this weekend...hmmmm...was suppose to send something but tak jadi :( what shall I do den????

Its easter this weekend and I wont be attending church with the whole family for the first time and having awesome food after dat...oh well :(

I found a black worm in my clothes while i was folding them..i had no idea it was a leech or a centerpede or milepede or watever la..all i knew is that i had to kill it and get it out from my room asap..damn eeeeeeeeee

I think I should catch up in my work...after watching the latest episode of gleeeeeee....:)

"Your not mad at me, your madly in love with me"

Im just rambling

History repeats itself
I can never be close to you
It has not happened once but your the fifth time around
Its a pattern
That cannot be changed
Its a disorder
Borderline apparently
Competition arises, jealously stirs tension
Criticism bubbles up anger
Irrational decisions are taken
Just to prove a point
I will try to disappoint you all the time if I can
And make you less important
I will love you at certain times
But most of the time I dont
Fix me
I need a doctor
Its nothing serious
But its something I have to work it out
After all these years blaming the other person
Finally I realize
Its me
The root of the problem

XOXO

ps: where are you?

Your word, My refuge

Sometimes I think what did I do to deserve of all this?
Why do people love to take a ride on you, give you sweet promises
And then abandoned the very next day
And pretend like everything is ok
I dont get it,I dont know what they think of themselves
It hurts a lot, especially when you trusted the person so much
Its like getting divorce papers all of a sudden from your partner when you thought the relationship is going fine
And they know I would be a lost sheep without them
Looks like you cannot trust men except for God
Cz dey will forsake and abandoned you

It mind boggles me that some people cant say thank you 4 favours done onto dem
Its not that I want recognition for doing something good
But when dat person bugs you all the time and worries that I did not do a good job at doing the favour
But when its finally done, you wont get a reply frm dem
As if dey are MIA
And when you ask dem bck, dey r like... oh yeah...i forgot
FORGOT YOUR HEAD LA!!!!!!
What's the big deal of showing off your attitude when people despise you?
Learn to have gratitude in your attitude

My anger wants dem to get a taste of deir own medicine
But deep inside I know its wrong
Its hard to forgive someone who hurts u, use u , take advantage on u, or in other words treat u like shit
Seriously, is it written on my forehead "TAKE ADVANTAGE ON ME CZ I WONT BE PISSED OFF?"
Or Am I paying my time...have I done the same thing before to another person..or am i overreacting
"Why worry the speck in your friend's eye when you have a log on your own?"-Matt 7:3

But these words sprang into my heart:
You will make a way, when there seems to be no way.
And when I walk through a valley where there is shadows all around, I will not fear, You will guide me, You will keep me safe and sound.
You will never leave nor forsake me
The Battle is not Mine, But Yours...

Tangled

What will u do if u were attracted by...

ur hot, handsome and single teacher who is only a few years older den u?







ur boss who is one of the most eligible bachelor (inherited good looks and money) but has a well-to do girlfriend?





ur neighbour's son who returned from overseas but his mum n ur mum dont get along?



ur older brother's friend who is freakishly cute but ur bro wants u 2 treat him like another bro?




ur long time family enemy's son?




OR

ur best guy friend who has a gf or is getting married soon?



AND WHAT IF.....

dey r attracted 2 u.....

WHAT WILL U DO???

IF IT IS WAS A ONE WAY ATTRACTION...it would be so much easier to cover it up and get over it cz its all up 2 ur imagination n nothing can really happen cz u noe its wrong in someway or another and the other party is not interested..unless ur bitch la n do wat ever it takes to get him..lol

however....

IF THERE IS CHEMISTRY BETWEEN BOTH PARTIES....imagine the tension, the guilt, the suspense, the regret, the secret, the pain of not being together, the suffering of keeping mum, and the job of telling da third party involved if da guy n da gal do come 2getha....sounds like a lot of drama ...

SO, SKIP THE DRAMA AND FOLLOW UR MAMA....
And fall for a normal person in normal circumstances..hahaha...

LIKE DATS EVER GOIN 2 HAPPEN!!!

Christmas Christmas time is here

Christmas shopping done.
Presents wrapped.
Tree decorated.
Caroling was fun.
1st batch of cookies done, another batch 2mrw, crap its gonna be the eve.
Mani and padi-no time la..need 2 DIY.
Clean my room 2 make it look more presentable like how my mother always says it.
Need 2 pack 4 da one week road trip back 2 north-26th till da 2nd.
Hmm..dats it i guess n we're set 2 embrace xmas and festivities for the week

Had a really frightening dream about my pastor where he prophesies on me dat da next ten years would be difficult n afta dat would be da rapture in which i would be left behind....NO!!!!!!!!!!! damn creepy...but im gonna take it as a sign to be prepared n be ready cz anytime it would happen...

Grenade is such a pathetic song...look at da lyrics...

"I'd catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I'd jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same"

Damn sad case la.....:(

The Balls Theory

So, I went 2 camp dis weekend n I met dis group of random people during dinner n guess wat we were talking about...balls..in a church camp...hahahaha

Its a game of who can come out with the funniest movie/drama/band/song titles by replacing one of the words with "balls"...

Here were da results of our discussion:

1. Harry Balls and the deathly hallows
2. Desperate Balls
3. The Chronicles of Balls
4. Pretty Litle Balls
5. Love the way your balls lie
6. Black Eyed Balls
7. Balls romance
8. Balls at the disco
9. Balls cant handle me

and many more la...but I think dis was da funniest...

10. When I c ur balls,that's not a thing I would change, coz balls ur amazing, just the way you are...when ur balls smile, the whole world stops n stare 4 a while, cz balls ur amazing, just the way you are....

Hahaha...cant stop laughing 2myself when i tink bout it

Dont get caught?

This is a true story that i just heard it from my uncle so im not sure whether it has been modified in anyways but here goes. Well, back in da days when there were no laptops and mobile phones, kids those days entertained themselves with outdoor activities such as cycling, running around or playing in da field. But my dad and his aunt had a thrill of taking people's mangoes and guava's from trees without permission. Niceee... Lol. So one unfortunate day, my dad's aunt or my grand-aunt got caught of taking mangoes without asking the owners first. Her dad, my great-grand father, was upset. BUT...he was not upset that she actually stole da mangoes but the fact that she GOT CAUGHT!!! Huh???WTH!

So wats da lesson again??? Dont get caught even when u did sumtin super wrong and u noe ur parents are going to kill u??? Well...kinda..* scratching my head*
So good girls are bad girls that dont get caught??? Lol...i dont noe :( Hmm...i tink im gonna use this story 2 save my ass next time...

Deep-a-vali=Dip-a-pain

Festive seasons are the only time in da year where u get 2 meet blood suckers dat plaster fake smiles on deir faces and cover deir sharp teeth which r ever ready 2 bite u n suck out all da dirty dirt n juicy stories frm u. As years pass by,i have learned da only way 2 beat dem is 2 expose dem 2 sunlight..lol... Unfortunely 4 me, i need 2 face this circumstances twice a year. Yet, i found dis year rather pleasing den da rest cz i did not get a chance 2 meet a lot of vampires...hehehe

As per normal:
-i ate like a pig
-i did not study when i have 2 more papers coming up
-i played with firecrackers like a 10 year old kid (oh,da joy of throwing pop pops at deir feet n laughin like a witch..MUAHAHAHAHHA)
- quite a big "collection" dis year
- did a rangoli kolam with da help of 2 assistants

-n i gave a big bear hug 2 my bro afta da incident dat happened 2 him
Good thing i did not dip lots of vali dis year...

Too good to be true

I had a bad feeling after watching da video
I knew it was wrong, you were always dere prompting me 2 stop
I did not need 2 see it cz i already knew it deceives us
Even though it revealed some truth and opened my eyes to the things unseen
Still it has became the topic of our discussion everyday
Whereby in a way we are "glorifying" the beast, drawing symbols and mimicking the signs
And thinking less of Him
Watching at late nites was a bad idea
Even only 2 parts, i have no idea how many spirits may have passed thru
Yet I know you cant touch me
Listen to your mum, she always knows best when it comes to you Lord
Its about time to make some changes
If she can save a soul, why not me?

Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world,
But transform me into a new person,
By changing the way I think.
Then I will learn to know Your will for me,
which is good and pleasing and perfect,
Only then I can see your plans for me.
Romans 12:2

the place where i belong

Back home after 7 weeks away rotting in sunway. The longest time i have ever been away from home but i dont feel the gap being dat long. I am just excited im back home n sleeping on my own comfy bed and eating home cook food...Ahhh...heaven!!!!

I still remember da 1st week when i entered monash, living alone, it really creep me out!!! Crying at nite 2 my pillow, waiting 4 da weekend 2 go back, frequent calls 2 my parents. But afta a year, everytin has changed. I dont call home, instead my parents need 2 call me n ask where am i n wat am i doin. I dont feel homesick at all except for the few moments when i jst feel how i wish i was home wit my family. Da thing is, Im bless 2 be surrounded with great frens n company 2 keep da emotions away whereby da weekends are no longer lonely n da weeks in uni dont drag along. Everytin is happening 2 fast actually. But I hate dis feeling dat i need 2 go back2 sunway 2mrw...sigh :( no worries, 2 more weeks n i will be back ...

Insomnia=Disturbia

Sleeping on my bed with my laptop on, eyes half close but i cant fall asleep.
I have off the lights,shut my laptop, tuck into my bed but still cannot sleep.
Try 2 lie down, roll over, change positions but still cant sleep.
Tried 2 just stop thinking, close my eyes n listen to the sound of da fan but still cant sleep.

Sigh....I give up n I decided 2 come online again n lepak in da virtual world.I need drugs really bad la. I just want 2 close my eyes n doze off to lala land rather than my mind being active n worrying.I tink dats da problem,i tink 2 much, i tink its due to da fact i need 2 make decisions. Decisions, Decisions, Decisions. God, pls help me!!! Or maybe im just a lazy ass who does not move her big butt 2 do some physical activity. Lol. My body says sleep but my mind says stay awake. Its like my body n mind r not working together. Like 2day i did not even sleep in da afternoon, by 11pm i was feeling really sleepy but when i hit da bed, i just could not sleep. Damn.

All I really want is a good night sleep. This insomnia is such a disturbia :(

my vampire

I can't get u out of my system

I tried but I fail every time

Your an ecstacy

Intoxicating every blood vessel in me

Controlling every cell of my being

A part of me still longs for u

As I cant take da sight of you

Being with someone else

I thought I could erase you

But you keep coming back for more

Get out I say

You love sucking creature

Your da world's most dangerous villain

And I do not want to be deceived

By you, my vampire

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